Something that made me smile

Abby was giving really good kisses today. At one point she gave me two or three in a row and then she leaned in to give Amelia a smacker. I told Amelia that Abigail wanted to give her a kiss and Amelia turned to Abby and they gave each other the sweetest little smooch ever recorded (or not, since I didnt' get it on camera). It was a precious moment in the middle of a tumultuous time. I'm so grateful for those.

Amelia and I leave tomorrow for Dayton. Unfortunately I still have almost all of my packing to do. Abigail did not take her nap today so my plans for being productive while the little ones slumbered were dashed. No matter though. They are all in bed and quiet now. It's nice to have a few moments of peace before getting back to work.

If you are so inclined, please lift up prayers for my little Abigail. She has been really struggling this week with fear and an adamant desire to avoid her bed at all costs. Naptimes and bedtimes have become a real struggle with tantrums bordering on panic sometimes. I have been disinclined to let her cry it out given the urgency which which she protests, but the times I have held her or soothed her she literally will not stop clinging to me. Even after she falls asleep, as soon as I go to put her down she's wide awake again and screaming. I don't know why the sudden aversion to bed and I'm painfully aware that I have no idea what to do about it, all the while feeling like I am constantly letting her down by not being able to meet her needs. It has been hard on all of us and I pray this ends very soon. Garrett is on his own with Gabriel and Abigail until Sunday night when Amelia and I get back. I am just hoping this weekend goes smoothly for all of us.